Life is Not Fare!

I just found out that my sister in-law is pregnant, again. Now I ask myself, "How is this fare?" This is a women who has been to the woman's shelter twice because her husband has beat her or kicked her out. He's not even suppose to be living at the house with her. They have three children already. He doesn't keep a job. "What the heck is she thinking!" She doesn't even know how she's going to pay next month's rent. Why don't they think about what they are doing to their children. I think they're both ignorant.

God, please forgive me for thinking this way.

I feel that god test us in so many ways that we don’t understand. For years now I'm been wanting and trying to have a baby. There's been nights that I've cried myself to sleep. I've asked God "Why me lord, why?" I realized that life is full of uncertainties.

Here I am dwelling on my own grief and sorrow that I don't focus on the world around me. There are more important things going on. A friend of mine just lost her baby almost a week before his 1st birthday from Krabbes disease. My heart hurts for the whole family. I wish I could take the pain away. Grey touched so many of us with his smile that it's hard to say good bye. I rather say see you later baby. That's what I'm holding on to. I realized that life doesn't stop, it goes on. Here is a Serenity prayer that a good friend of mine shared with me:

GOD, grant me the
Serenity to accept the things I cannot change
Courage to change the things I can and
the Wisdom to know the difference.

Thank You Delia for sharing I love it.